Thursday, August 30, 2012


Today I came to read about an article by AINS which is an analysed report about research on the increasing use of internet among teenagers. The report says that the teenagers are very much addicted to the new media. The social networking sites become an unavoidable part of their daily life, a habit. The very adverse effect is that they can't control the time which they spent in front of the machine. Once who people are addicted to the Television in that way the youth are addicted to internet. The younger generation doesn't have any specification to use the network, once they log in to some sites they will get into another and in search of something get into another and so on. This must be counted as a power packed drug that lead them in weak both physically and mentally.

This was the content of that article, it also says that continuous use of network create some stomach appetites, by not keeping your diet healthfully.

I agree with the fact that youth are addicted to the network. But no control over it? that is not truth. T^hey are basically use the network, because the world where they live demand it and the only way they found keeping there relation is the networking sites. And also the social networking medias become one of the most powerful tool for marketing. Different companies taking this profile to understand their customer. When some one is logged into the site, looking for something may pass to another because, they need more clarification or the marketing effectiveness of some company.

In this limited time of daily life business every one is going for shortcut. So if the information is on your thumb why you are searching in self, to get the same data. I am not trying to say that network is only mean good, ya of course it have the adverse effect, but we cant limited or controlling the use of internet in specific scheduled because this is a global media.........

Relational Confusion!!!!!

Now these days I am thinking too much about Relations ( doesn't mean I found a new relation). I am worrying about the instability of the relation, people are flexible....... in all means. In our present wold no one is really sincere to anyone...Relations seems sometimes for a step to success or for to meet the daily business.

I am not talking about any particular type, it can reflected in all sort of relation including parent-children to the modern trend friendships. They get together with very soon without knowing each other and also break-up very soon. Actually people are not care about these, having very busy schedule. Now these days parent-children relation are also ruined.. No one find any value in any of the relations. Friends once the term was celebrated as the top most position in the relation list. Now there is the most popular instinct friendship.... People see, with in no time become friends and went off. Its like saying hi and bye simultaneously.

There is a common statement for this problem, this is a very busy world and people should be in hurry. No time  to know other person and since you are living in a society you need peple to take care of some of your things. For different needs you keep different relations and pretends being wonderful in commitment. Like what the old says its Kalikalam.....


I have a strange feeling in these days......I don't know each day I carry a pain in my Heart.... I don't know the reason. I asked to my friend why this is so? Then she ask me the reason that I don't know. But something is Related to you, the pain is from my heart. I don't care about you, but these days what was that. I am so conscious about you, I care what you are doing and how you talk to others and what you are looking for.

Lost dReAms.........

When we talk about the lost ones, people will have different counts. Some may have many, a tittle or for some luckiest it is little. There are also those unfortunate ones who may have countless numbers in the lost category. I belonged to the latter one. I don't know whether it is because I dreamed a lot or am being so fictional.

None ever came to know about my dreams because they remains dreams or lost-dreams.When our dreams get true people came to knew about that it was your dream to be so, only then. I always believe that crying and being sad is very private to an individual and one should share such moments only with oneself. This belief helped me to keep my lost stories to myself and I never let anybody know about my tears. Anyway what people can said about your loss, " don't worry, its not for you and there will be something better is kept for you, try hard and all bla bla bla..." We can have better word for our-self.

One of my expensive dreams is to see one of my dreams to be real. When I came to know the fact that dreams are not only those which are seen when your eyes were closed, I came to know about the pain of loosing one........

Friday, December 23, 2011

If it wasn't happened!!!!!

some times life plays very pity games with us. I don't think that is exactly true. Most time we felt that life plays unfair to us, is the time we actually came to know about our self, what we really is.Recently I came to know very hard digesting matter regarding myself, I'm really a fool, actually am not emotionally matured.

I saw him on the month of April in 2006 though that time I neglect the indication,' You are a Fool".After that I saw him many more times and gradually I make myself to believe that I have something on him. I was doubt only on whether it is only a infatuation or it is a really the so called love. My so sweet seventeen can't make a proper judgement on that time. But I was fine with what am feeling at that time. Whenever he is on my sight my heart beaten up so fast and loudly. I felt undefined and mysterious fear and thinks that my heart will blast in any moment. I want to see him every moment and thinking about him every second from the first moment i woke up and until I fall in sleep. He was crossing my mind every seconds. But whenever how was in front of me I want to escape from his sight, I was so..... I don't know how to put it in words.....

Though I never talked him or I never express my feeling towards him through any way, a belief in be become stronger an stronger, that he was feeling the same. As my colorful day dreams and beautiful days are went on suddenly one day my dearest sister came to know about my thoughts through my diary. She was hurt by the fact that though we don't keep any secrets from each other, I tried to hide this. She didn't talked to me for two days and that was the unbearable punishment I ever got. After a lot of emotional drama and atyachar with the consent of my bro-in-law she made me to promise that never again think such things about him and also I will be happy. I prayed to God that please take him away from my sight and so I can keep my promise( God was very kind towards me in this and this is the prayer I ever repent). Ya after that I always be happy in front of her. But he made me in tears lot of my nights and whenever I heard the word LOVE he cross my mind.

The days gone without any life and I become more centered to my own world, includes my family and friends. After Graduation I joined for the PG program and I get my laptop with net service. I started searching for him in the social network though I was not confident about his name and details. But for some times I was doing only searching and didn't care about my works. I prayed to God that I want to see him, at least for one time, but HE sticks to my old prayer. Slowly I come back to my life concentrating on my studies and life around me. In the meanwhile I heard lot of proposes, but I don't know I neglect those words thinking that the beauty of those words only come from him. This made me left alone in the campus in so many occasions since I wasn't interest any other company. But thanks to all my friends who made my life alive and add colors.

After my PG I worked for some time and continues my search on the network. I want to forget the promise or I don't want to tolerate more pain. I don' t know how many times I terribly felt to see him, how many times I miss him and how many times he fill my eyes with tears. I always bear the pain of missing him and keep a question that why he left me???? I quit my job for searching job in the Government sector and suddenly One day I found him in the social media. My excitement has no limits and my happiness have no words. But I was shocked to receive a message from him that who are You. I asked myself How could you forget me, you cant do that. That made me to try a game on him. I didn't reveal my identity and he become angry on me.

He took a day to recognize me and I didn't get the fact that I was none among the life around him. I was irritated and don't want to accept the fact that all was my mistakes. I was showing my dislike of his behaviors through pause. But he didn't mind who I am and how I am..... and sometimes after he DELETE me from his list, saying that am not responding to his quarries. Really it was a shock. It was out of my imagination, he just DELETE me.

You know something I was searching for you for the past 5 years and you were in my heart for every seconds of my life. When you press the remove button you are punching me on my heart. To the best of my knowledge you the first and last one I ever want to be with, I ever dreamed of, I ever waited for........ But you just delete.

Now I understand I am a fool who spoil every moment on a person who don't care about me who don't even know me.......... I cried for the one who never care about me I was dreaming for the obne who never imagined about me. All I spent my time on the imaginative world were we were living happily.. Now I know I was in a fake world for me a heaven but it collapsed now an I fall down, though the world was fake the fall make the real pain.......... I don't know how long I have to cry for..........

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

A Small Wish.... Actually Not so small.....

Some people came into your life accidently but as the time passes such people become your life. I don’t know how such things still exist in the fast moving world. How we are still being human in such an inhuman world. Yes such feeling made the human life over the earth. Though such feelings are for the time being, people live in those moment without any means.

Being in love is a wonderful feeling in any person’s life; irrespective of the gender difference we enjoy that feeling. I wish I also fall in love with my dream….. a dream that is only exist for me…..

Monday, February 28, 2011

Collage and College

What is great in this??? You may think the same. But when you make mistake like this at the PG level something is there, it is understood that no great things( PG stands for post graduation, in a collEge life you may have so many PGs) I done the mistake today in my request for reimbursement. Like as the old says " Mongan erunna pattinte thalayil enthoo... veenu", the great mistake become a reason to make fun and the same can delay the cash-flow. But I really feel embarrassed, not because I made the mistake, but because they found that.. (Hehe) I always like that. My great thought

"There is nothing wrong in making mistake, and it is a great talent if nobody catch you for that".

But today I failed to hide a simple spelling mistake... Shame on you.... But it can happen, right? ya, In the lifetime of every great people, there is something like this :P

Learning- College-institution, academic. Collage- Collection, patchwork... What a difference ( but for us both are somewhat same:-) )